有一天开始从平淡日子感受快乐,看到了明明白白的远方,
我要的幸福。/ 陈奕迅《稳稳的幸福》

2013年4月13日星期六

Five Five. 505.

在这个国家从出生到现在,时间说长不长,说短不短。人嘛,还是有些感情的。
我热爱这个国家,但是偶尔也不大懂这个国家。

从之前的干净、绿色等活动看来,人民希望国家成为什么样子的意识稍微增强了一些。老实说,我这个人有些洁癖。不过就算没有洁癖的人,也不喜欢肮脏的东西。

啊,忘了说,“民主”这个词,在这个国家听起来有多么的讽刺。

许多现在的孩子都不懂得政治,包括我们自己,有多少个人真正地了解这国家里头发生了什么样的恐慌,而这国家的前途又有多少人真正地关心。
或许很多朋友都人云亦云,改变似乎成为这次大选的热门口号。

我不懂那么多,我没有特别支持哪一方,因为我没有完全真正地了解,啊不,应该说,谁都不能了解那么多。有时候,很多事情都处于灰色地带,谁说都有理,却“有理说不清”,有时变得强词夺理。

昨天,也发生了超人事件,怎么牵扯到学记的身上了呢。我感激所有新闻工作者的努力和坚持,也明白很多时候并不是他们说了就算,他们的辛苦也没有多少人晓得。要知道这个世界的现实有多可怕虚伪,无辜地陷入这些政治纠纷的人又有多少。
不管怎样,我们需要担心的还是这个属于所有人民的家园的前途。不知何时小学生才会懂得国家统治的制度,而不是熟读历史和PA等课本上的仅有资料,然后考试,然后再忘掉就好。



改变,不是因为我们认为100%能够变得更好,而是失望在那些催泪弹咆哮和拳打脚踢中慢慢成型、爆发。当失望过了头,你就知道大家都醒过来了。
要知道,醒过来是一件很容易的事情,尤其大家都在这块土地快乐成长过,渐渐知道我们应该拥有的是什么、该认清的是什么、该抓住的是什么。而我们即将就拥有一个觉醒的机会。



没错,这些年来的一切不但没蒙蔽我们的眼睛,反而让我们看得更清楚。
Five Five. 希望一切安好,但愿everything will be fine. 







2013年4月5日星期五

生气自己

有没有尝试过,当你定下了目标,也完完全全觉得自己能做到时,却做不好?也达不到自己的目标?

这或许是spm后让我生气自己的一件事吧。
我该检讨、反省,这我知道,但我就不知道自己错在哪里了。或许应该说,我大概知道自己的错误,却无从下手、无可奈何,因为这全部都已经过去。

灰飞烟灭。
不是梦,是现实将你推入火坑,要你选择:被火焚烧至魂尽,还是像孙悟空一样练成独有的金睛火眼,煅炼成精钢一身,天不怕地不怕。

坦言,我真的什么都会害怕。
真的很怕,就这样所有所有,都破灭了。



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一切,安然无恙。
我懂这场雨又快过去了。

2013年4月1日星期一

未来

突然失去方向。

我知道自己的成绩的确可以读得上任何自己想要读的科系,但却对于自己是否能够驾驭好那份职业的责任,说真的,我倒是没什么信心。

从来,抛书包也不算是我的强项(虽然很多人都以为是,还说羡慕我为何能在大家那么忙碌之余,显得轻松自在还观看港剧)。到现在,也不清楚自己喜欢和比较好的科目是什么。你要我拿出成绩自己看看哪科考得比较好?都差不多,也是许多朋友眼中算不错的成绩(别打我)。

每次说我last minute和懒惰的时候,他们都说,啊,可以的啦,你怕什么。
其实我很害怕,深怕自己只有读书的能力,除了读书之外,什么都做不好。(另提:而且读书又不是特别神级,我是说真的)

难道活了那么多年都还不知道自己的长处?
未来?还真是有待发掘。



号外:
刚刚读了一位医生的部落,特爱他的一个句子: “未来,其实是“未必会来”。
还真的唤醒了我,人在生时,真的需要珍惜一切,要不然到最后只怕来不及了。



2013年3月22日星期五

你好,我是我。

想做的事情很多。

“就去完成啊!” 有把声音在耳边响。

2013年1月20日星期日

The trip that I aimed to find my courage back.


Taiwan Trip Jan 2013.
I was lazy since the holidays started like 2 months ago, if not mistaken. The wings of time brought me to somewhere else, perhaps a world that may not be discovered, until I forgot the theory that time will neither stop or rest when you do. I don't really like 2013, as its beginning didn't show much happiness or excitement that have made me satisfied. Oh come on, I shall not bring this pessimistic character forward in the new year.  

Kay then. Let's talk about 2013, as I don't know what to comment on 2012 anymore. It seemed so far from me, further than ever. Though 2012 was good for me, there's no ache, no pain and no loneliness, still, it's now over. And my real 18 will be gone very soon after 4 months. Perhaps Taiwan trip was the best adventure that I've done so far. We went Taiwan without tour guide, yet with our own preparations by surfing internet, asking relatives and friends at Taiwan. 

Did I tell you that I actually hoped to join student exchange programme? Either 2 weeks or 1 month. However, some money issues and problems occurred, my parents are a little worried (not a little, hmm), until they're not supportive in me joining this activity, so I guess there's no chance for me to gain an experience like this. I should just applied two years ago, when the organization came to our school and encouraged us to have a try on it, and perhaps you'll get something that you've never learned before, and it might change your life, or I mean lifestyle, or perception and estimation in life. Too bad, I failed to join, but I'll say, the Taiwan trip did certainly make me learnt something. 

I told myself that I was brave enough, to have a self traveling experience. Don't you think it's cool? To go everywhere anywhere by your own self, with complicated and mixed sentiments, be nervous, excited, cheerful, terrified, worried, etc. Seriously I'm suck in spilling my feeling in heart, I just can't find the suitable words to describe them. But still, I feel happy indeed, as all that 8 days in Taiwan made me smile whenever I've thought of them. I remembered to take plenty of shots over there, so if there's one day when memories turn into splinters and I'm no longer able to place these memories into the precious box hid in the corner of my heart, there're still photos that framed the moments forever and ever, for me to look at. 

Sorry that I don't really have the mood to write the details of the trip - that I aimed, and I found my courage back. Guess what, I would really like to share with anyone of you the feelings and all stuff that I experienced in a different country compared to us. It gives me inspiration to trust that 2013 will be a good one. Oh no, I mean, I will make 2013 a better one. 

I'll soon turn off my lazy mode and write about the trip more. Thanks for giving me courage, Lord. I'll give my love to the others as much as I can and I trust that You and the others will give me more, as always. Oh yeah, read "The Lucky One". There's one character named Clara inside, haha. It made me thought of Clara in SAM. Nah here's the quote that I love in the story: "It was a life, she eventually concluded, that had been lived in the middle ground, where contentment and love were found in the smallest details of people's lives." 

lol sounds vividly sad. Hey but remember, there's always no point to be upset if you're not going to pay your endeavour as your next step. Good luck guys and happy advanced new year. :) 




2012年12月29日星期六

2012前。

总有一天,你会有那股力量,走别人走不上的崎岖小路爬上山峰。
只要你不放弃,到最后,所有事情都总会有些眉目。

一直相信“希望”,不是因为我相信童话,而是我相信,人生是因为看见希望而不泄气继续咬牙前进、因为拥有希望而没有恐惧变得坚强、因为将自己的希望落实而拥有最美好的内心收获。请在用金钱赚取换来的物质上的享受的同时,学会“心中富有”。——我告诉自己。

:) 但愿即将降临的2013,一切安好。